"Wait-" Jonathan starts to say, desperate, reaching a hand out towards Dio with an utterly miserable expression. But then he retracts it, letting it fall to the bed next to him and leaning his head back to thump against the headboard a bit hard. He didn't know what to do anymore, what to say, how to fix things.... no, he'd just permanently damaged things, hadn't he? He didn't want to lose what he and Dio had, but was it truly fair to keep it going when it meant stringing the other man along? Did... did Jonathan want to love him like that, when he had a wife and Dio had done such horrible things to him in the past? Or was he feeling this way because in some warped way, it was nice being someone's everything and he didn't want to lose that? God, he didn't understand a single thing.

All he ended up doing was breaking the heart of the man that kept him safe and free of most of his lonliness. Jonathan really wished he could just make himself what Dio wanted him to be for him, but in the end, Jonathan was just too much the type to devote his entire heart and soul to one without leaving room for another. As long as he stayed married to Erina, there would be no place for Dio, and Jonathan had no plans on giving up his ring any time soon, not when there was even a fraction of a chance that she could show up one day. This... was all a very big mess.