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[dioception]

[It is easy enough to send a private message to DIO, but anything written here would be visible only to recipients and to those who hold his book in their hands.]
{I'll pretty this post up more in the future}

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[dioception]

That's what separates the devoted from the rest.

[totallysane]

You don't think I'm capable of it, do you?

[dioception]

Not in the least, Thriller. I can't really fault you that.

But you'll play at it convincingly, hm?

[totallysane]

Apparently not that convincingly.

[dioception]

Not to me, no.

You can't really convince me of much though, don't feel bad. I've known true devotion, and I'd never in a million years believe that you would give me a fraction of the worship I'd been given previously.

The people who readily gave me their lives nightly. People who willingly decapitated themselves for my benefit, before rebirth was an option. And of course, the one who had devoted his life to bringing about Heaven at my side. [Was it obvious enough that he missed them?]

You couldn't measure up, but perhaps your energy is best spent elsewhere.

[totallysane]

No, I couldn't do those things.

There are things I'm trying to do though. The blood, that's one thing. Making things for you, that's another. You know my body is available, though you're probably drowning in those kinds of offers.

I couldn't promise everything I am to anyone though, that's true, because it would require only caring about that one person, and no one else. If I offered up what would hurt my friends for me to give, that would be a problem. I already lie, now.

[dioception]

You enjoy being drained though, and while I've yet to figure out whether you actually enjoy the sex or not, it benefits you as well.

You do things for me because it benefits you to do so. Not because you feel any sort of devotion to me. I can feel the difference in our every interaction.

The way you speak, how you hold yourself around me.

Each time we meet, it is a business transaction. Nothing more.

[totallysane]

Is that really how you want it? YOu didn't give me that impression, sometimes.

Is that really how it has to be?

I won't deny that I enjoy it, but can't something be an equal exchange without being that cold?

[dioception]

Do you truly believe that anything inside of me is not that cold?

[totallysane]

I do believe that.

[dioception]

Then you are more foolish than I thought.

[totallysane]

No, just tired.

I give up, you win, you always win. Call me when you're hungry or want to fuck.

[dioception]

Thank you for acknowledging that.

I'll consider it.