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[It is easy enough to send a private message to DIO, but anything written here would be visible only to recipients and to those who hold his book in their hands.]
{I'll pretty this post up more in the future}

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[Would it be more awkward to actually explain the nature of their relationship...? Maybe. It'd certainly be confusing.]

Mmmmhh... Well. Mikado and I have both been here for over a year, and we've known each other the whole time.

I like to think of it as looking out for each other. As you'll notice, some of us aren't able to fit in, socially, and us misfits need to stick together.

Even if it's hard to, sometimes.

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I've noticed that there's a lot of drama, some of which I'm still learning about.

[Her voice is wry. It seems that while food with benefits isn't wrong, it's more complicated then that. Considering how this place is, how the people are, she can get it.]

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Can you blame us, though?

[His smile has faded by now, Dio's brows knitting in concern.]

Every one of us has lost our homes, lovers, families. Our whole lives. We all arrive, grieving. Tensions run high. Things are said or done in desperation, in attempts to understand and to control our environment, and it often backfires spectacularly.

We've only been here a year. We still don't know our environment or what can be done with it. Some people desperately cling to the past, and some want to discard it completely.

The people who act like they're in charge are biased and those not in their circles are left out to dry.

Drama is more normal than downtime.

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No. I don't blame you one bit.

[Her own smile had faded, and she leaned forward.]

None of you. I wouldn't be surprised if there were people angry at me because of some of the things I said.

But I...do wish, we could all talk to each other calmly, rationally. But I might be asking for too much. Especially when I can get pretty heated up, myself.

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[Dio frowned. He had at least expected to be scolded a little bit for letting his temper get the better of him, even if he had just rationalized why they would be letting their tempers get out of hand.]

I think we're a little way off from that, still.

There is still so much to fix, so much that... separates us. Makes others feel lesser or greater than another person. Though we've all lost much, there are obviously others who live in more comfort and some who have very little.

It's all very unequal, and there will be clashes for the foreseeable future.

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As much as I want to say you're wrong, I can't disagree with you.

[She raises her eyebrows.]

We are unequal here. And some of us have a better grip on their temper then others. Which may make it worse.

Even if they feel it's justified.

Even if they just kept it to a punch out match when they could have ripped off they other person's head clean off.

[There's your scolding. She sighed.]

Punching maniac.

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[Okay he was going to take it seriously but then she called him a 'punching maniac' and he could not help but laugh aloud.]

Hey, sometimes a fist-fight is best! It at least gets all of your grievances out in the open and allows you to burn off some steam.

Feels good! Like exercise! Exercise that can make you bleed!

[That wasn't weird!]

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[She's not going to say anything. She is just going to give him a look.

And flick him between the eyes.]

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Ah!

[Ok, ok! He was going to stop his grinning now to pout a little.]

Nnnhh... yeah, yeah. I know. I made that fighting thing because I just... I really enjoy it. Back when I was a boy, it was how we passed the time. [Him and the other kids in London? Him and Jonathan? Yes.]

And I'm trying to get control of my temper but... I just get so fucking angry sometimes.

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That's what you have the fight club for. And I did hear a little from Jonathan how he used to watch fighting and such.

And I admit, I...can't do that. I can't just try to punch someone and feel better. If I fight, I go for the kill.

[She wrinkles her nose.]

That's how I was trained. Anyway. Would you do the same thing over again?

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Oh, Jonathan and I used to fight like cats and dogs! Sometimes in the middle of a ring of other boys. Don't let that big teddy bear act fool you, he got that body from somewhere.

[He was mostly teasing. Jonathan WAS a giant teddy bear. He was just also a teddy bear who would stand up and fight if need be. And he was good at it.]

I don't know. I could lie and say it'll never happen again, but truth be told, I don't have that kind of a hold on my temper yet. It's something I'm trying to work on, but I can't guarantee I won't fail.

I can say that I will make every attempt not to have a repeat.

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Pffft. He's like a super hero teddy bear.

[She's teasing too, mostly. Though that is a cute image.

She does, however, lean forward and peck Dio on the cheek.]

That's all I can ask for. Thank you Dio. For trying. And not lying to me.