IC Inbox/ DIO's Diary

[dioception]

[It is easy enough to send a private message to DIO, but anything written here would be visible only to recipients and to those who hold his book in their hands.]
{I'll pretty this post up more in the future}

Comments

[totallysane]

I'm trying to make the point that you're shooting yourself in the foot.

You have a nice guy who actually cares about you and is willing to go out on a limb to be your friend, and you're rejecting him.

[dioception]

Yes. It's about time someone else was rejected.

Why should you care whether or not we're friends. You're getting what you want, as is he.

[totallysane]

You're rejecting the nicest person in our whole town, and that makes you feel validated somehow?

I care because you're my friend, he's my boyfriend, and you're both obviously unhappy over it.

[dioception]

I do not need your feigned concern, and Sam has other friends.

[totallysane]

That's not really how friendship works. People don't just replace each other.

Plus I went to a lot of trouble fighting for the right to see you and keep you from starving to death. It'd be annoying as hell to lose you now.

[dioception]

Don't worry. You'll see a return on your investment.

[Can you hear the eyeroll from here?]

[totallysane]

I'd better. Making friends is hard work.

[dioception]

[Your ass is just lucky that Masaomi made that deal with him, otherwise he'd come pick you up by your ankle and shake you, little man.]

I'm sure.

[totallysane]

Fine. You don't have to believe me.

But if our deal is really so simple as my blood for your body, why did you tell Sam it was complicated? What's complicated about it, Dio?

[dioception]

It's all very complicated, Mikado. Mostly in that I don't believe I have ever once seen who you really are under all of those masks you wear.

Sometimes I wonder if there is anything genuine left of you at all.

How can I know my relationship to someone when I don't even know the person?

[totallysane]

You saw me. You saw me when I panicked and yelled at you in all caps over Sam. My terror over the idea of losing him was real.

You saw me when I came to you because I thought you needed me, because I thought you might die. That concern was real.

And you saw me when I took advantage of that vulnerability to do something you may not have let me do otherwise. That was real too.

[dioception]

Look, I get it. You want everyone to do what you want, but you're not physically strong enough to, so you lie and act in order to fool people.

I don't care about that. Keep on doing whatever you are doing, but stop acting like you are fooling me. I've spent a century locked in a coffin at the bottom of the sea before, I'm not so desperate for companionship that I'll eat up whatever shit you tell me.

[totallysane]

Sometimes I wish I hated you as much as you think I do.

Do me a favor. Next time just fuck me dry, it'd be about as pleasant as reading that was.

[dioception]

Got it. I'll write that down in my book so I do not forget. "Next time Mikado wants to be fucked dry."

You should hate me. I've done nothing to warrant otherwise, and will continue to do so.

[totallysane]

I guess we'll have to see which of us is more stubborn then.

By the way, are you enjoying the mirror I made you?

[dioception]

It's particularly useful, yes.

[Of course, he couldn't really know that Dio was using it to watch people, but that's beside the point.]

[totallysane]

I thought you might like it. I made it extra pretty for you.

Being useful is enough for me, if you won't trust me. Don't stop letting me do that.

[dioception]

I honestly do not know what you're on about. You and Montague both have this weird complex about being useless, but you are the most useful people in the settlement.

[totallysane]

[ He stares at this for a second, not sure how to respond. Is that a compliment? It is, isn't it? Even though Dio is talking about him having a complex about it, saying that he's one of the most useful people in settlement - up there with Navarro! - is just crazy. He blinks at the phone for a long moment, and then finally types. ]

I guess it's hard to get used to the idea. There's a difference between being useful to the community and useful to the people you choose to devote yourself to, though.

But thank you for the vote of confidence.

[dioception]

[Dio hadn't really meant it as a compliment, but take it however you want, Mikado.]

If you're truly devoted, then you are as useful as anyone can be, even if you fail.

[totallysane]

And how do you gauge true devotion?

[dioception]

[Aaah, now he's come to the right man. As a former deity, he knew the qualities of the best devotees. You know, for his own purposes, in any case.]

There are many types of devotion,
Mikado, but the most important thing is that a devotee be willing to sacrifice themselves for the one they are devoted to, without asking anything in return.

It calls for loyalty, selflessness, and resolve. Though the things I look for in devotees differ slightly from what most people look for, these are the basics that remain the same.

[totallysane]

That "not asking anything in return" thing sounds pretty hard. Are you just supposed to trust the person you're devoted to, to do what's best for you? Or is that not even supposed to matter either?

[dioception]

That's what separates the devoted from the rest.

[totallysane]

You don't think I'm capable of it, do you?